Stepping Stones and Boulders

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In church last weekend the pastor was talking about stepping stones and boulders. I will provide you the gist of the message. Baby Christians need stepping stones. If you know a baby Christian you should be their stepping stones with your knowledge and mannerisms. If you, (being a baby Christian), have people in your life that are not stepping stones for your developments in Christ, they are a boulder. He gave the wonderful example of a drug abuser coming clean and hanging out with two types of people. The new friends, that support his good habits and go to church, and the old friends that taunt him about not using and drag him down. This case is clear cut as to which are the boulders and which group are the all-so-helpful stepping stones.

My case is not so clear cut. In my case, I am a stepping stone for her and she is a boulder for me. It has been this way for years. She is not a baby Christian, and knows the right way. At what point do I pull away the stepping stones she is treading on? If I can use this analogy, it is like she is keeping me from climbing my own stepping stones. Don't get me wrong. I do not want her to falter, but I am tired of not being able increase my personal walk due to maintaining hers. I do understand that some people need more stones than others do. What about the person that needs consistent stones? The person that takes away from your other friends and commitments you have made? So, I feel stuck between a rock and a hard place (ha,ha). Do you have any suggestions or advice?

I hope I have made sense. And, I want to throw this out to all of you as well. Who is a boulder in your life? Who is helping you lay your stepping stones and are you doing the same for them?

Just some stuff to chew on this Thursday afternoon. I am particularly stressed to the upcoming wedding for my sister on Sunday, so I must thank the blogger for taking my mind of that problem for a little while. Hope you all have a good night and enjoy tomorrow and the long weekend!

Same Old Race

Do you ever wonder why some people have "the drive" and others don't? That you can work so hard to get to the top in competition with others and some don't even care where the top is? I am definitely one of the people that has an eye on the top, even though it may not be what others consider the top. I have a hard time relating to people that don't even look up. Like they are standing in an elevator waiting to be delivered to the top or something. I also watch others think they are getting to the top, when in reality, they are slipping further down. It is hard to watch a friend go down. One line I remember was this "Friends exist to pick you up and brush you off when you fall on your face." In thinking this way, I will have to pick them up and get them back on the scale after they realize they have reached the bottom. It is a sad thing for me to think about.

On a lighter note, I am looking forward to the concert season and hoping it takes God speed to get here. August still seems so far away. My life seems to be in one of the common lolls. When it is moving slow but seems fast. The days go by and I can't seem to get anything done but am still enjoying the time I have. Thinking of everything I have to do and not getting much accomplished. In anticipation for many things but at the same time not really wanting them to arrive. Maybe you can relate. It seems like the same old race over and over and the finish line is barely visible. On second thought, the finish line is probably a mirage! Yeah, I think that would better describe it.

Well, farewell, dear readers. Enjoy the days you have with the people you love and adore.

INTRODUCING....

Logans Vader! Who is Logans Vader you ask? My new horse! WOoHOo! This is going to be a short post, but I wanted to keep you all updated. I found him at the last auction in Calhan on Saturday. He is a solid sorrel paint and has a white blaze. He is very handsome and is newly 4 years old. I know, and yes, he will need some work. Probably a lot of work. But, he is so sweet and has an awesome temperament. He would make an awesome show horse if I decided to go that way with him.

I do feel rather guilty as Cody has been giving me an evil eye since he has seen me loving on another. Man, animals sure are wonderful, aren't they?

So, the search is over, Thank The Lord! ~HUGE SIGH~ So, now I can begin brushing up on my skills. I have to get some more tack and find him a color. I am thinking purple would look nice on him. But, I will have to decide that later. I am still dealing with the butterflies in my tummy! So, goodnight you all! Have a wonderful evening.

Why Can't I Help?

I was sitting in a meeting for two hours today. We were talking all kinds of business numbers. Like how many children we have, how many cancels we process, percentages, pie charts, and line graphs. And then, something brought back a memory that I had completely forgot.

...One afternoon I was watching television. It was not a special day or anything, but I remember living in Arizona (so I must have been in 3rd or 4th grade). Up pops a commercial for a child sponsorship organization. I was so taken by the infomercial that I actually called the 800 number. The representative I spoke with seemed clueless! Like when you call a large 800 line and they direct your call elsewhere. Anyway, all I remember is that I told the lady on the phone that I couldn't give monthly, but if it was possible to send a one time donation now and again. Her answer was no. But it was so much more than a no to me. It was the day I realized adults didn't take kids seriously! I could have donated my allowance and birthday money and Christmas money. I could have gotten my parents inspired and helped the children in poverty. I have no idea what triggered that memory, but it made me have butterflies in my stomach.

Who would have known Compassion was God's path for me?! I was hesitant at first because I didn't have any kids of my own, but I closed my eyes and hopped into the rabbit hole. There are ups and downs (like in every job) but I love it here. I feel very blessed to be here and be part of a much bigger picture than myself. And, that feels really nice.