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Some of you may not know I am a music freak! I love music and my parents used to get mad at me because I "loved" a different song every other day. If I counted the songs I claimed as favorites, I am sure the list would be in the tens of thousands! I must apologize for those of you who are expecting a well written and entertaining blog. I feel as if I am coming down with a cold. My head hurts and this is the second day I have been in a bad mood. Let me ask you this - if a person has sick time, why do some look down on you for using it? How I would love to go home since my visitors have plans for all day (and even dinner). I would be joyous to go home, crawl in bed, and watch The Full Monty while dozing. We are celebrating my mom's birthday tonight, so I still need a gift. I could wake up later (around 3) and have time to shop at my leisure to find her the perfect gift. Instead, I am stuck sitting here with my right nostril plugged (which is the most annoying thing in the world), waiting for a beep in my hear so I can either be hung up on, hear a SIT code (which tends to blow eardrums), or talk to an insignificant other who says they are sending money, but you know they never will nor will they give the person the message in the first place. The whole day is looking dreary and monotonous.
Anyway, back to music. It is one thing that I can find unlimited joy in. Do you ever have days you just want to be Oscar The Grouch? And there is always a perfect song that helps you feel more grouchy and might even make you feel better because the song is so depressing? Yeah, you guessed it! (And you wondered why I have such eclectic taste!) Today is very much a Nine Inch Nails (older album), but could also easily qualify for Tori Amos or at a minimum Sara McLaughlan. Usually Nine Inch Nails is reserved for really bad days which classify more as mad days. They are easier to handle then depressed days. There are a lot of good mad groups out there. This I find funny. There are even Christian mad groups - doesn't that kinda defy their overall purpose? I could always put on a happy album, such as The Point, which is an album written by Harry Nilsson when we was high about a town of people who all had pointed heads (except for Oblio who was banished to the Pointless Forest). But what is the reason to being cheery when you feel crappy? To be honest, it is one of those days I see no hope in changing my attitude or trying to. It is so draining to make the "happy day" effort.
This song classified as a favorite about 6 years ago. It is not a well known song, but it is very melodic and fits my mood today. (And, let's face it - it's not like I will be pasting Nine Inch Nails lyrics or anything).

BON JOVI LYRICS

"(It's Hard) Letting You Go"

It ain't no fun lying down to sleep
And there ain't no secrets left for me to keep
I wish the stars up in the sky
Would all just call in sick
And the clouds would take the moon out
On some one-way trip

I drove all night down streets that wouldn't bend
But somehow they drove me back here once again
To the place I lost at love, and the place I lost my soul
I wish I'd just burn down this place that we called home
It would all have been so easy
If you'd only made me cry
And told me how you're leaving me
To some organ grinder's lullaby

It's hard, so hard - it's tearing out my heart
It's hard letting you go

Now the sky, it shines a different kind of blue
And the neighbor's dog don't bark like he used to
Well - me, these days
I just miss you - it's the nights that I go insane
Unless you're coming back for me
That's one thing I know that won't change

It's hard, so hard - it's tearing out my heart
It's hard letting you go

Now some tarot card shark said I'll draw you a heart
And we'll find you somebody else new
But I've made my last trip to those carnival lips
When I bet all that I had on you

It's hard, it's hard, it's hard, so hard
It's hard letting you go
It's hard, so hard, it's tearing out my heart
But it's hard letting you go