Blur of Busy
I am finding myself updating during my lunch break. As if I'm not on my computer enough, I feel the need to complete this for the whopping 5 or six people who might just read it?! (Please excuse my attitude, but you will soon learn the reasoning for it)
I wish I had something that I have observed that was absurd or humorous, but the fact of the matter is I have been a blur of busy. And, not an exciting busy, like having something to look forward to (like a nice Hawaiian vacation) but the kind of busy that gets you nowhere but exactly where you started (if even that far). Can you relate? Like the work you do on a daily or weekly basis that has piled up so high you have to burn yourself out just to break even where you would have been if God would have given another 30 minutes to the hour. It's not the work, but the feeling that you will never get ahead or even on top of all the stuff you have to do. So, you see...it is a vicious cycle. It drains you for nothing. Curse personal deadlines and goals for self improvement!
I guess do have something to look forward to. I have three guests from Africa coming to visit on Sat. They will be here for a week, so I will have time to get to know them and their culture. There, of course, is a downside... it is three times the cooking, cleaning, laundry, and normal daily duties that I already am lacking time and energy to complete.
You see, today there is no hope. I am not only feeling a little sorry for myself, but for some reason think that anyone else would really care to sympathize? I know I would not sympathize with myself, but I am a very unsympathetic person.
I wish I could whine for another 6 paragraphs, but I am off to training.
I wish I had something that I have observed that was absurd or humorous, but the fact of the matter is I have been a blur of busy. And, not an exciting busy, like having something to look forward to (like a nice Hawaiian vacation) but the kind of busy that gets you nowhere but exactly where you started (if even that far). Can you relate? Like the work you do on a daily or weekly basis that has piled up so high you have to burn yourself out just to break even where you would have been if God would have given another 30 minutes to the hour. It's not the work, but the feeling that you will never get ahead or even on top of all the stuff you have to do. So, you see...it is a vicious cycle. It drains you for nothing. Curse personal deadlines and goals for self improvement!
I guess do have something to look forward to. I have three guests from Africa coming to visit on Sat. They will be here for a week, so I will have time to get to know them and their culture. There, of course, is a downside... it is three times the cooking, cleaning, laundry, and normal daily duties that I already am lacking time and energy to complete.
You see, today there is no hope. I am not only feeling a little sorry for myself, but for some reason think that anyone else would really care to sympathize? I know I would not sympathize with myself, but I am a very unsympathetic person.
I wish I could whine for another 6 paragraphs, but I am off to training.
posted by Nic at 3:12 PM
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